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Why it's past 12 midnight and I'm not yet in bed. Tomorrow's a Friday but still is a working day. Why am I not tired? I don't know but I always feel that sleeping is not for me. Unless if I'm sleepy, I would rather do something else. Sleeping is just too time consuming.. I might as well use the time spent on other things I haven't got time doing. And yet, I can also spend time nibbling non stop thinking and contemplating bout my life, how's it going, where's it leading me, am I happy in my current situation....i can just nibble... give me a bag of chips. I can finish them..give me a tub of guava cubes you can watch me emptying it up in front of you, give me a 400g La Boheme walnut bread, I can tear and indulge in the fluffy soft bread bit by bit and tada...gone in a matter of minutes.

See, even a sports enthusiast like me finds it hard to loose weight these days. I'm already very happy I don't put on. Things just get out of hands when I'm by myself and start pondering on things. It's like I need the energy or nibbling to keep me in deep thoughts.

I just hate it but things will get me depressed when I start comparing myself with others. And when this starts. I feet myself lacking a lot and envy starts crawling in. Shall I talk further. I feel like I'm ranting. Bah!

Tomorrow... I can imagine what I'm gonna do again. Just like any other days, call/mail to follow up on proposal by vendors. Get the info and feed them to somebody else. Basically, sort of a middle person sandwished between the 2.

Well, well...is life worth staying on this way? I'm not progressing much and I coming close to a year here. What shall I do? Look further? Starts planning? Bah... too much things to think of. I'm starting to lose faith in working life. Read lots of rants on it. Seems like everywhere's the same. What to do if not work? Study? Blekkk...I finally get to escape, no... not going back so soon. I like the fact that I'm workin in a food company(my line of study) and not confined in the manufacturing plant but not very happy with certain factors. It would be difficult to get a position like this from what I've discovered so far. The grass might not always be greener unless I fall right into a position I like as much and satisfy me advancement wise as well. That's when lady luck strikes, otherwise ..disappointed I'll be. I'm being vague..and lame...I'm confused myself, but I'm gonna get things sort out soon, for sure! "First and foremost, what am I really after in life?" I should ask myself.

Working environment especially the people, the way they interact is something i haven't gotten used to. You see a lot of masks around you. Conversations would sound friendly with laughter and humour but the meaning might not me. Also, people working in the same company can be broken down by politics or previous misunderstandings whatsoever. I know this happens in every company. I'm just taking working environmento too personally. Working is not just about getting your responsibilities done...but to get there you've got to source info from others and that's when the people interaction skill is important be it internal or external sourcing. You've gotta be determined to get ur point across to make the person understand why it is important you get the information. Most of the time, people do not want to take responsibility of the info they provide and thus push you ding ding dong dong everywhere.

And that's when you start to see stars above your head.

What're your gadgets?

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Sat, 24/05/2008

It's another lazy weekends which I just didn't feel like going anywhere, meeting anyone. Felt like doing something to kill the boredom. Didn't want to stay in the room any longer. It's damn too hot these days that I can be cooked up in the room with only a ceiling fan.

I looked from corner to corner of the room. Tennis and squash racquets were leaning stealthily against the wall untouched at one and my swimming attires laid out at another(only there a moment ago). Frankly speaking, I'm the proud owner of these gadgets. Swimsuits's bought late last year. Cap's silicone made, not those cheap latex or nylon made that I used to own.

How about accessories a lady should have? Errmm... Bah.. Useless stuffs. Come on, investing in sports gadgets is much more advantageous!

Went to the balcony to check out the weather. Looked down to the pool. "Nice... people are swimming leisurely and why am I here? Am I not supposed to be on my mission to fix my fly?" On the other hand, I had a solid reason not to. Do find out why in my next post.

Shifting my focus further....can you locate the Petronas Twin Towers, KL Tower and Times Square? The weather's no good, it's normally easy to locate on a clear sunny day.

"It's OK to be home today. Tomorrow's gonna be tiring. Tennis game at 7.15 am, then MV for a gadget replacement. My tennis shoes! It's sales time and I should get them now."

I'm back!

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Harlow everyone, sorry for the long disappearance. Nope, I haven't been anywhere, just a lil busy with stuffs surveying on new hp. Neh, just a budget one without 3G is more than sufficient for me. Also, my eyes're getting all watery due to long PC usage. So, I make myself look away as much as I can when I'm not working.

Okie, here are the only pics deemed suitable to share on my Gua Tempurung trip. Not so much to give you a picture of the trip, I admit. No faces as I haven't gotten agreement to show others on the WWW. I as well don't have a pretty face to show. Hahaha...

That's the tracking map ... I'm being redundant, am I not?

And these...are 2 pairs of ladies' feet after the adventure. The lady on the left ignored my repetitive warning on her footwear. Slippers are indeed a no-no for places with high water level and slippery rocks(though mostly gravels here). Suitable footwears should be either shoes or strapped sandals. One can easily slip and fall chasing after their float-away slippers. Fortunately, that didn't happen. She only ended up with one slipper and a sock contributed by a good Samaritan. In fact, she walked in these right from somewhere near the beginning of the 4 hours' adventure harrowing the rough gravels and muddy grounds.

The lady with long pants apparently did not expect the shoes she sacrificed expired so much earlier in the adventure. The soles came off creating an innovative jaw-like footwear. During the trip, again this good Samaritan helped to tie plastic strips to salvage them. Yes, it did came loose, but he stayed close by and retied them for her. This made me ashamed of myself for just being a bystander. Hehe..

What's your idea?

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Let me give you a situation. It was a public holiday, one which you deserved a good rest. However, you're pulled out of bed earlier than usual. Lets say you normally wake up at 6 am but for today, you've wound your clock to 5 am. You were to drive and meet up with the group at 6.30 am.

Next, group+you (YOU) headed off to the neighbouring state at 7 am ++. YOU sat in the car for 2.5 hours. Upon arrival, you were greeted by early birds like you.

After paying for the RM20 ticket, you found yourself being led into a dark area. You couldn't see things, that's why they asked you to bring a torchlight. You saw stones around you. The area you just entered smells of cold damp air. You heard water flowing at a distance. The further you walked, the sound became louder.

You were asked to bend the rules. Jumped across the fencing and went down the slope. That's what the mass were doing and you followed. At the bottom, you found your shoes wet. Apparently, you're walking in the river. Was this your idea of a day off? Hitting the street in the earlier hours just to find yourself wet, and worse...you'd gotta pay RM20 for this.

So, you knew this was only the beginning. You had totally no idea of what's to come but it's going to be 3 hours before you could leave this dark & damp dungeon. You walked along the river, you felt sand going into your shoes. You ignored them. You felt your feet landing on gravels and rocks. You'd gotta be careful not to slip and fall into the water. Around you, you saw eroded walls of rough surfaces. Light beams from torchlights around you helped you to find your way. Voices of people could be heard everywhere.

Then, you saw crowds in front of you. You got nearer. You saw one by one people crawled in the shallow water to get across the low ceiling. The 4-legged crawling resulted in their clothes wet. One by one.. by one and your turn came and passed. Your head's aching, cause you knocked your head on the jutting low ceiling.. Your palms and knees ached, cause they supported your weight against the rough gravels.

Then you walked, walked, walked...still walking in water, still walking in the dark... You went up a slope and did a stunt slide down the steeeeeep slope. Your bottom was not only wet but muddy. You soaked your butt in the water. Washed it off and continued. You saw a few people around you have got their shoes torn. The sole flapped open and you noticed lotsa creative ideas to keep going with them.

After what felt like hours, you saw light again. You came to another end from where you entered. The following journey brought you up a stairs back in the dark. You took step after step up the steep staircase to the top. It's like a procession of lights in the dark to the top. Up there, everyone heaved a sigh of relief, though many were out of breath. "The height from the bottom is 155 metres," you were informed.

The smell earlier had gradually turned into some stale smell. Your idea was it could be due to the droppings of the habitants here and the fact that you've arrived to a somewhat stagnant water.

You thought 4 legged crawling is a bad idea until you found yourself crawling with only your head above the water. Your elbows hurt. You did not welcome being soaked in some unhygienic water with the rest. All you saw was that the water was definitely not clear, debris had been a common sight from the beginning. You did not welcome soaking yourself wet and cold in such an hour at an unknown place hundreds of miles away from your cozy bed.

You couldn't quit. You were already wet. There's no turning back. You're experiencing primitive homes. You tried looking at it from a positive angle. "I'm experiencing mother nature firsthand," you repeated to yourself.

When you finally exited, you wanted to wash up so desperately. You paid the RM1 bathing fee. Here, you queued and queued and the line didn't seem to advance closer. The stench was disturbing but the people took forever to shower. "People in there, it's not your bathroom, wei...rinse yourself and come out!" you felt like shouting till you found yourself in it and lost track of the time! Not entirely guilty, you blamed the low water pressure.